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Wow...I haven't written here in awhile..I check it often but never write anything.
I moved...again. This time to Euless and this time without a roommate but with my boyfriend, Aaron. It's going great so far! I love living with him and coming home to him everyday. He's working for UPS now which is hard because they have him going into work at midnight every night. I hate not being able to sleep next to him but I know that he likes it better than working for Tom Thumb.
I love Aaron so much...it's mind blowing to think of how happy I am and that everyday he is there with me. I couldn't have created a better love to have in my life...he is my heart. I keep wondering if I'm dreaming and hoping I don't wake up.
Things have been kind of a struggle financially because I have bills coming in from the last apartment that Duane isn't helping with because Aaron didn't pay any rent when he lived with me at the last apartment and I'm okay with that, it just sucks right now, but it will get better soon.
Got a new job too, I started there right around the time of our move and I'm loving it right now! I can see moving up with the company and learning a lot.
I'm missing Seattle a lot more lately and especially my friends...it's just not the same here, my friends aren't the same.
There's been so much but also...not a lot.
Love to all!
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I went to Six Flags yesterday with my honey, Aaron. We got there around 11am and didn't leave until almost 8pm! WOW! But we had SO much fun on all of the rides. I hadn't been to Six Flags in about 10 years so all of the rides we went on were new for me. We hit the Titan first which is a fucking ridiculous ride! I felt like I was falling straight down and almost out of my seat. Needless to say, I was freaked the fuck out! Of course, Aaron's been on it before and he's sitting next to me hooting and hollering while I'm holding on to the thing that's supposed to keep me safe to make sure I don't fall out. We also went on Superman, Batman, Mr. Freeze, Runaway Train, and the carousel. Doesn't sound like much but with the lines and humidity it packs in to quite a day. It wasn't sunny outside so the heat didn't get to me too bad but I got a little bit of a headache and then we went on Batman and my head kept hitting the pads that come around the shoulders....and THAT didn't make my headache any better so Aaron was a real sweetie and sat with me for a bit til I felt better.
It's Halloween time so Six Flags decorated and had costumed freaks walking around scaring people. They also had Death hanging around to get your pics taken with him. The guy in the costume, makes a great Death! We got pics taken with him. We took more pics of us and then of each other...it was great!
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...aren't so little.
When you tell someone that you love them you give them a lot of power, especially when they don't say it back.
You give them the power of knowledge.
Yes, I love you. No, I don't want to have sex with anyone else. Yes, I'd love nothing more than to sleep next to you until...I don't know when.
But do you have to remind me that I've given you this power when you can't say the same back to me?
Not mad, not sad. Just waiting and hoping I haven't made the biggest mistake ever. |
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Sep. 21st, 2007 @ 06:21 pm
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It's a little plastic, yellow key that I keep locked in a box. The top is shaped like a heart that has long since been colored in by some sort of red pen. I don't remember what age I was when I put it there, only that I remember saying I would give it to someone, someday, when I gave them my heart. Over the years I've found it several times and just kind of laughed over the cheesiness of it all but still I kept it, maybe just as a reminder of how girlie I am.
I found this key again, locked in this box, and looked at the person sitting across from me thinking, "Could he be the one I give this key to?"
Who knows? It's too soon to tell, but it made me smile to still have it. |
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So much has happened and I want to write about it but I don't want it to take hours. A LIST is in order I think!
- Went to visit Lori at "A-Kon" while she was here in Dallas! Lot's o' fun! I saw a bunch of costumes, caught up with a great friend, learned a bit about anime and met my current WONDERFUL boyfriend, Aaron. So Lori, if you're reading this, I have a lot to thank you for.
- I stopped talking to my mom because she has a drinking problem and ended up in the hospital again one night from what was thought to be an attemtped suicide. Again. It was my first impression she would there for awhile and would be receiving help but apparently not. To make this short I'm not talking to her until she decides to get help and also realize that her reactions affect more than just herself.
- Got another new job and it is GREAT!!! I love the paperwork and reports I get to do and the people I work with are all around my age and funny as hell! - I've grown closer to Tasha but in the last few weeks I haven't heard from her much and I'm not sure what is going on with her but I know that it's time to stop. I miss all of my other friends and glad to be out of my funk so I can hang out with them again. - Monkey's birthday party is next month and I'm very excited! He'll be 1! - Melissa is having another baby, this time her nickname is bug. So Melissa is the mommy of a monkey and a bug and I am the proud auntie! - Aaron. We've been dating about 3 months but only 1 month has he been my actual "boyfriend". As he reminded me the other day, i was his before we made it official. I've only said this twice in my life but I've never felt this before. I'm not ooey gooey "love" but it is possible and almost close. He's funny, goofy, and oh so cute! I've never been with someone I wanted to have sex with all the time, who made me horny just by looking at them. Wow! I won't go on much because then it will just be disgustinly cute and I will avoid the nauseousness.
More has happened, I'm sure but this is the "skinny" on the major.
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She's excited, can't you let her be excited? Why rain on her parade? Yes, you may have your reservations and doubts but you're not in her relationship, she is, so your doubts and reservations are not hers.
You complain she doesn't call you and that you never see her. Well, would you? Would you want to see someone that tells you all of the awful things they think about your relationship and the person you're with? No! It just makes things tense and no one can be happy.
Be happy for her. She's not asking for your opinion or your permission she's just asking you to be her friend and that means just being happy for her.
So, if you want to be her friend and you want to know what's going on in her life....then be her friend and be happy for her.
Jun. 20th, 2007 @ 03:28 pm
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http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19249594/site/newsweek/page/0/
YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES
Jun. 15th, 2007 @ 04:26 pm
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"It's not my fault these kids are overweight, the cereal I buy them is at fault."
Seriously?!?!? Take resposibility instead of taking companies to court! You are in control of what your kids eat and how you eat, not the companies that make the food, it's your choice to eat it. Yes, you could ask them to make alternatives but threatening them with lawsuits just makes you look petty.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070614/ap_on_he_me/kids_food
Really?!?! They want to change our cereal? Cereal that's been around for too long. Why? Because parents don't have enough control over their kids or able to show their kids that yes, eat what you want but also know about the good for you stuff. It is not the school's sole responsibility, fast food, or food companies to teach your kids about nutrition but YOUR responsibility to teach and SHOW your kids how they should eat. If you want to know more about it the OMG! pick up a book, read, study and show your kids what you know.
Jesus! No wonder I don't want kids...the parents piss me off enough.
Jun. 15th, 2007 @ 09:15 am
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What are your favorite and least favorite words? Any reasons why?
Perfect....Perfection
I love these words! I'm not sure why although one of my favorite books is titled "Perfect".
Jun. 8th, 2007 @ 09:56 am
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I just got a phone call at work for a restaurant called "Fuzzy's Tacos" and by a guy name Chuck Bush.
That's just so wrong! And funny!!!
Jun. 5th, 2007 @ 03:45 pm
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Oh, I'm sure he'll make an excellent grandfather
"Papa, why can't Mommy get marrried?"
"Because little Samuel, I don't think it's right and neither does the former president. We don't really care if Mommy is unhappy."
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18827250/
I LOVE it! You know I have heard, the "people" you hate most will end up in your family. I hope she gives her father a hard time all the time and maybe someday he'll realize that the decisions he helps make effect those around him, even his own daughter.
May. 24th, 2007 @ 11:06 am
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| » Wow, it's only 11am and already a good day!! |
SO!!! I found out that I got the new job that I interviewed for last week. Allison, who I used to work with here at Daydots emailed me about it thinking that I would be perfect...and oh, I AM! All now is to pass a drug test and background check and I should be starting there in a few weeks. Yay!!
Also, I'm going to Austin this weekend with Tash to visit Angel. Well, she's going to visit but I don't know if I'll get to because I'm not sure if I'm on the list. Sad, I'll just have to sit in the waiting room for a couple hours and read. Oh well, as long as Tasha is happy. Also, I'm SO happy that I get to see my family down there and I found out that my cousin, Bethany just had a new baby boy named Jacoby! Yay! So so so happy!
Tonight I'm supposed to go to a Deftones concert with Duane but we'll see how that goes, the last few days have been really weird and I'm not sure where it's coming from. He says that I just constantly ask, "what's wrong" but I'm SORRY, so sorry I just worry and then he says that he doesn't want to talk about what's wrong because it always leads to a fight. Grrrrrr! I'm talking to him tonight AFTER the concert because I've medicated myself to prevent this and I don't like it continuing to happen. So, wish me luck.
May. 16th, 2007 @ 11:15 am
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My doctor has put me on Wellbutrin, a mild anti-depressant which I'm happy about. It's been almost a week since I've been on it and so far so good. I don't really notice it much but what I do notice is that I'm not tired as much at work even when we're slow and that I'm sleeping a bit better at night. Also, my moods are different....I think. I haven't really been feeling down but then again I haven't really been thinking negatively either.
I don't know, I've always been one to think that we rely to heavily on medication thinking that it will solve anything. I don't know straight facts but I'm sure there are studies out there showing that ever placebos have the same effect on people just based on their frame of mind. I hate the fact that this isn't something that I could fix myself because I don't like taking pills but at the same time, I don't like hurting the people around me and with my family history of depression and substance abuse I don't want to ever get close to that path.
Anyhoo, I've also submitted my application for school and will register for Fall classes next month. I am SO excited about this and found a lot of classes I want to take. Yay! It's taken me long enough but I really think it's better for me this time around. Oooo! I found out that TCC offers kickboxing classes, beginners even so I don't have to go to 24hour Fitness...yay!
I'm liking this so far, things are looking up.
May. 15th, 2007 @ 01:17 pm
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So, I've made a doctor's appointment on the 8th to speak to her about anti-depressants. This was a hard choice to make but my moods have been somewhat erratic lately and I don't like it because of how it affects those around me. I don't want to be on them forever or even for very long but maybe long enough to get my life together because right now...it's not so good.
I'm going to TCC also on the 8th to talk to them about registering for school. I'm also looking into kickboxing and belly dancing...hehehehehe. Maybe later yoga.
I miss my brother.
So much to do at home and not enough time; cleaning, grocery shopping, cook dinner, do laundry....grrrrr why cant' I be 3 people?
May. 1st, 2007 @ 01:04 pm
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I realized the other week....I've been dating awhile...just dating and I'm really ready for that relationship. BUT I don't want to rush it but I also don't want to date a lot of people. AND I'm not going to worry about it.
I'm not going to be a girl who stresses over being single because well....it's not worth it. My life however, is. I want to do things, for me and I'm going to take the time to do them.
So, I'm going to have fun.
Apr. 23rd, 2007 @ 03:49 pm
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| » Yanked from Ryan! |
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified!) about what people remember about you.
Apr. 23rd, 2007 @ 03:47 pm
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| » Just when I thought Texas couldn't get any scarier.... |
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070420/ap_on_re_us/bible_classes;_ylt=AhkmZ5u5zLvy4LOxvHlYn4LMWM0F
I'm sorry but.....NO....HELL NO!!
I'm all for history, freedom of religion but I'm also for the separation of church and state. Keep this out of my schools. The Bible is not history its a cults "answers" to all of lifes problems. I don't look to it as fact, I know many who don't either so don't try to teach it as such.
And further more...I hate the fact that many public schools are used as churches on Sunday, keep that out too. Yes, school isn't open but that just feeds it.
If you want to pray, hold gospels or whatever the hell else christians do...find a building a pay for it. Stay out of the one that I've helped pay because you are not what my money is intended for.
Apr. 20th, 2007 @ 09:45 am
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I know, and odd topic to pick to talk about.
I was watching some of his videos at work today and of course noticed the changes in his facial structure over the course of videos.
He should have stopped...or not even started.....but WOW has he taken it too far.
I'm convinced he has a disease, I'm not sure on the correct name for it but I've read about a mental disorder that if you have it, when you look at yourself you see a horribly disfigured individual. Some hide to shield the public from their "ugliness". Others, with the money, decide that plastic surgery is the solution but the problem with the disorder is that it will never be enough because you will never look at yourself and say, "Wow, I look much better now." Your nose will always bee to big, your lips not big enough until one day you look like a disfigured person that you once thought that you were.
I'm sure that experts have already come to this conclusion but I never put much thought into him before, it's his life.
And the kids...you know if I looked like him, had the life he had I'd hang out with kids too. They are much less judgemental and don't automatically think the worst of people. I mean, the first incident had to come from somewhere maybe a misunderstanding and the parents took it too far, saw an opportunity and it escalated from there. Mob mentality maybe? "Well they say their kid was harmed and my kid was at the same party...OMG he touched mine too! Must have because he's so funny looking and weird!"
I think as adults we've become so cynical, always second guessing people, thinking the worst, looking for motives when maybe someone could be very genuine. Just because it doesn't make sense to you doesn't mean that it doesn't make sense to the other person. I'm just as guility of doing this, I'm a very skeptical person and unfortunately sometimes can't compute the reason someone is giving me, "what?!? You washed my car while I was gone? Why? What happened?" when it could be as simple is that my car needed to be cleaned and I kept saying I needed to do that but hadn't gotten to it yet.
Back to Michael. So he likes hanging out with kids...even sleeping in the same bed with them...yes yes, I even find this all a bit strange. And yes, I could see where people would look and say that he fits the profile of a pedophile. BUT, we can't know for sure and unfortunately, the only person who does know isn't speaking. All I know is that if my kid was molested by someone I'm not going to take money from him, I want him behind bars. No matter how much he offers. BUT if I pretended that my kid was molested then money would be just what I wanted. And if I was a so called "molester" who did nothing but wanted it to all go away I of course would offer money to stop the publicity.
OR, he could be a crazy pedophile who likes touching kids but has enough money to get away with it.
I'd make a HORRIBLE juror. But I like looking at things a different way.
Apr. 13th, 2007 @ 02:06 pm
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